It's a funny thing...

It’s a funny thing when you realize the guy you’ve been idolizing for 3 years is a filthy liar who is undeserving of your worthiness. It’s a funny thing to realize that even though I can think on my feet and lie as well as he can, I still chose not to.

"Somebody had to tell you your lies are getting old. And they are. It’s better to tell the truth because that way, you don’t have to remember the lie that you told. In my not-so-humble opinion, I think it’s bullshit. You can’t be too afraid to trust someone that you lie to push them away and run when they get too close to you. You have to be careful who you let out of your life, because when you long for absolution, there will be no one on the line. Sanity will slowly seep it’s way through your fingers.

I know what you’re doing. Mostly because I live in what I call my Dreamer State also. My reality isn't all that pleasant either, but at least I’m not too far off from reality. I know what real and what’s fake, where as you live in a world where you make things up as you go along and hope to God it all plays out in the end. Your reality is so far off from actuality that it almost hurts when you fall back down to Earth. Open your God damn eyes, reality is knocking on your lids; it wants in. Face it, if you keep doing this you’ll end up dying a lonely death.

Underneath all the lies, infidelity, and lust, I’m pretty sure you could be a good person."

"I am pretty sure that there was nothing more magical than being in the room with that dreamer as he wrote music. I was there once, I felt that magic. Even though years later most of the time my thoughts go to 'what was i thinking?!' There were a whole bunch of other people that got to become addicted to that brilliance too, but to be honest, there was nothing worse than being the the room with him the rest of the time. I have never met a better liar."