Herm

"Actually, none of these were written with anything to do with him in mind. They are things people have told me, I have read and written down that I think are some pieces of great advice. I guess it's hard for anyone on the outside to understand the relationship that we have now. i think everyone would be surprised that we are actually friends, I see him at least once and month, he's given me a tour of his new house and we've had many conversations about our wishes, flaws and ways of dealing with things. Ryan's life isn't in the dumps, that's just what the outside world thinks. He is busy, doing what he loves and honestly seems calmer and more content than I have ever seen him. It's hard to believe but fame isn't always #1 to people, and many people who have it, then really revert from wanting it.

I guess because of our relationship that people do not see, it's easy for me to crack one on him because I know he will laugh, shake his head and I think understands my crazy. Ryan is friends with both swoon and I, and honestly, this is a much bigger deal to you than it is to us, we laugh about our relationship and what a nut-so time it was often."

I am so happy I'm crying.
Thanks for clearing this up.

I've been all wrong. Sorry Ryan. Sorry Keltie.