One more time, we'll try this

"Helloo helllooo. Hi,hey.Hooooo. just.like.that.  You were mine, then gone.just.like.that. okay?

So. ANXIOUS.for nothing whatsoever to happen. Why does the world have to be so despondent?
but. I like it.am it, want it. more and more. But you, child. You?
Wasted half my life on pushing pushing pushing and now this boat is empty. The helm is vacant.
Where is it supposed to take me?
My illiterate dreams,wasted on pushing for something to happen to occur to shine,a hope.

Nothing.

But I can't blame you for resisting resisting resisting my desperate pleas. Oh God, does this.make.me.desperate?
but,one more.time we'll trythisand hope to fucking God."

Oh, could you imagine if I, me, this grammar Nazi, typed like that? My illiterate dreams, I figured since I dream in symbols and numbers and words I'd put some down for you. Yes, I actually saw this in a dream of mine. I'm still trying to figure out what it's supposed to mean. Okay, so, I'll be doing this more often. Putting my dream words, dream sentences, dream whateverthefucks, down here. On this.....blog?

Love you...you know who you are.....don't try to hide it from me.

I know you still read this.