Thursday, September 9, 2010

Today is the day of lonely

It's these type of days that define my darkness. I love the people in my life, I honestly do, but I don't need your advice. You think you're helping me but you're only hurting me. I'm so lonely I was actually considering calling the boy who broke my heart to come over and hang out with me. I didn't, thank god. But the fact that thoughts like that actually run through my mind is disturbing. I'm taking a giant leap backwards, after taking only three meer baby-steps forward.

I miss her.

I need her.

Yeah, I know time heals all wounds, but little time has passed. I still get tears in my eyes whenever she walks by without a backwards glance. Whenever looks back, she looks at me like I'm a lost cause.

And I know that you say she's not a real friend for hurting me like this, but I can't help it.

She is, and always will be, my best friend.

1 comment:

  1. hi!
    I read some of your posts and I really hope everything works out for you. Loosing friends is hard, no matter why. I moved to the other side of the country and realized that my old friends don't really care about me anymore. I don't know what happened to you but I truly wish that you will be okay. There's always someone who believe in you, even though sometimes it's just someone on the other side of the world.

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