sigh.
im slipping.
back.
sigh.
you're the giant ass crack.
no im not talking about ass.

sigh.

cryptic me
silly me
explosions go boom.
i can hear my heart
in my throat.
a ticking time bomb.
just like you.

fuck,
what the hell am i supposed to do about this?
ignore it?
thats gotten me SO far in the past.
i cant talk about it.
i cannot.
will not.

shit.
maybe i am crazy?
do i really needneedneed
need i?
wantwantwant.
fuck.

fuck you.
i knew it was a matter of time.
we called the fucking bomb squad...
but band-aids cant fix bombs.
i dont know which wire to cut
looks like ive cut the wrong one..
now were back where we started
just like i knew we would be.

its a loop.
a cycle.
unbreakable...
how long do i have to suffer through
this before
you finally get that
im done?

done.....

sigh