I

am tired of always coming in second. every time I'm compared to someone, I'm never good enough. it feels like no matter how hard I try, I'll never be good enough for anybody, or even for myself, which is the worst feeling in the world. we've grown up to accept who is real and when we compare ourselves to that, an try to apply ourselves to that, we will never be that. it sucks knowing nobody is good enough for themselves. you either think youre too fat, too tall, too annoying. it sucks. all I want is to be desired. but everybody says it, and if they dont, they imply it; I'm not as good as them. Skyler and kieran say I'm not as pretty as Jessica. they say she is more attractive. even though she is my best friend and I would never give her up for the world and I am extremely proud of her beauty, it still hurts coming in second. Emmie always gets all the guys. its either I'm not pretty enough or don't have curves or im just plain annoying. even though Emmie is my cousin and I love her and I would never give her up for the world, it still hurts coming in second. always. always I will come in second. it sucks. it hurts. that is why I am not good enough for myself...

I'm not good enough for anybody else.