time and time again we fall into this rut of self-pity.

i just dont know anymore

something seems off....

corvu est prope

just know just know that i will always always love you

you selfish motherfucking prick.

Don't. Look. Out. The. Window.

Slender's World

" ........Its limbs were the tree branches! Its hands were grabbing at me; its face appeared everywhere I turned. I couldn’t get out of its reach. It seemed the more kids it stole, the longer its arms. The longer its arms, the more powerful it was. I was stuck in another universe, a parallel to our own. One that it owns. It was Slender’s world now, and it had me and all the children in its grasp......"

Past Lives

Standing in a crowd of vacancy

stare at the faces staring back at me.

I have worn masks of many creatures,

changed my life and all my features.

Here I stand alone and torn

presented with past masks I've worn.

It hits my like a thousand knives

that now I do realize

these are all my past lives.

I want to go home
back to the place i know best
but the snow has covered everything in this town
and theres no home in sight
there no bed to rest.

here we go again.
colly colly
fuck
what do i do
keep messing with you?

in and out of life,
youre slowly slipping.
youre rocking is a sign
youre close to tipping.
now where the fucks your mind?
your biting and nipping
like the animal inside.
you know youre tripping.
theres just too much going wrong here.
theres too much of you that you lost dear.
im sorry you had to know fear
but whos fault is that in the end?
im not pointing my finger
but the fault falls on your head.

were slowling growing weaker, weaker.
were followed by the reaper reaper.
where are all our great thinkers?
were dying and were just so eager.

you dont know if you are
coming or going.
your mind is way too far,
your thoughts are slowing.
now everythings a blur,
youre scared its showing.
but its all what you deserve,
you best get going.
there's just so much for you to bear.
i know all you want is to see clear
but youll never see whats right there.

but whos fault is that in the end?
im not pointing my finger
but the fault falls on your head.


were slowling growing weaker, weaker.
were followed by the reaper reaper.
where are all our great thinkers?
were dying and were just so eager.

were slowling growing weaker, weaker.
were followed by the reaper reaper.
where are all our great thinkers?
were dying and were just so eager.

were all getting cheaper, cheaper.
no one will stand up to be a teacher.
we have no one for a leader, leader.
and we just dont care either.


were slowling growing weaker, weaker.
were followed by the reaper reaper.
where are all our great thinkers?
were dying and were just so eager.

were slowling growing weaker, weaker.
were followed by the reaper reaper.
where are all our great thinkers?
were dying and were just so eager.






(i know i know, i just keep revising the song. oh well. deal with it.)

In and out of life,

you’re slowly slipping.

Your rocking is a sign,

you’re close to tipping.

You don’t know if you are

coming or going.

Your mind is way too far.

Your thoughts are slowing.

Now you’re sporadic

drowning fast.

You’ve hit your end,

it’s come at last.

Your mind is gone

it’s in the past.

You’re stuck behind

The shadow you cast.

And you’re sinking slowly.

herrrrr

ill be S0ber 3ventually.
waiting for my foggy brain to clear.
i might smile sinfully
but behind that lies doubt and fear.
here i drink to my comrades
falling in the dust
friends die in my head every day
my brain slower with rust.
ill be S0ber 3ventually
just not now, not today
i cant live with the demons in my past
the shadows creep to take me away.
but eventually theyll leave
like the blood leaves my heart.
its cold as rock and hard as diamond
drinking to all thats fallen apart.

ill be S0ber 3ventually

craaaaaamps

why u no go away?!

its still kinda hard believing whats changed
i dont regret anything that happened, dont get me wrong
but i wish the you i lost it to
was a different you.

you loved me. thats undoubted.
but now you dont even miss me.
you dont care how i am,
how this fucking treatment is going..
its like i never even existed.

you dont miss me a single bit.

i miss you.

love love love love is a tricky subject

yes?

welcome home me

seeing my boy today.

happy.

lol just found a stem of weed on my mothers keyboard...

Jon has some splainin' to do.

I wish
I could get
over you.
But you fill my mind.
I don't know where
to go. Don't
know what to do.
Stuck inside
your lie, searching
for the truth.

Blah Blah Blah

shut your fucking mouth

you stupid whore

Heading home
mixed
feelings

basically I was there to be a babysitter and a maid
I didn't get paid a cent.
Oh, it's not fair to ask for money?

That's right.
I just sacrificed my 16th birthday to see you.
One incident and I have nothing for my 16th birthday.
One?
One.

I know it was wrong.
This is harsh though.

I am just so done with Elisa right now.
I am not allowed to say 'hate'?
Well I kinda hate the way you treated me.
Just a typical teenager?
Right. You're just a typical
control
freak.

Well I know I'm not going on this trip again.
You hate me
and I'm not willing to be dragged around by kids
and clean up after them and their drunk mommy
without pay.

Nothing I do is right in your eyes.
So sorry,
but bye.

I've found my own paradise
here in Hilton Head.
Sadly I'll have to return.
Sucks.
Can I not just be happy?
For once?

I needneedneed
I don't think it makes me sad.
I know it's a depressant but
so are you.
What can I do?
I will notnotnot
as much as I used to.

I just need to.

Then I met you.
You are just like him
but so much better.
So much.

You drive me crazycrazycrazy.
I want you,
you're just so awesome.

Be in my band?

Fuck. What am I gonna do?